Fear

I think more than my appointment with the cardiologist next week I am scared to go back to school. Like when an old familiar smell like a bag of corn nuts brings a sense of nausea to my stomach, I am afraid I will make myself sick being there. At the very least I will leave with a headache after all the catchup work I need to do and from answering 5 billion questions. The questions and the look of pity from co-workers and parents are what I think I dread the most....the kids wont be so bad though. Once they realize I am okay, I am sure we will quickly move on with our day.